With Apologies

To: Carl Sandburg, Robert Frost, Maya Angelou, Mary Oliver, William Shakespeare, King David, Emily Dickinson, Walt Whitman, Langston Hughes, T.S. Eliot, Rumi, Edgar Alen Poe, William Wordsworth, Homer, Pablo Neruda, Dante Aligheri, William Blake, John Keats, Rainer Maria Rilke, Phyllis Wheatley, W.B. Yeats, Billy Collins, Dr. Seuss, Shel Silverstein, Anne Bradstreet, and just about every other poet I have read.

Except Brian Bilston. I refuse to apologize to him. I admire him, and love his poetry, but I simply refuse to apologize.

Having some time today,and being overtaken by an evil muse while the earth slowly tipped on its axis, I wrote two poems for the occasion.

An Answer To The Eternal Poetic Question Of Spring, Written On The Occasion Of The Autumnal Equinox

Fall has fallen
The grass may die
To the South
The birdies fly
Wing on bird? Bird on wing?
It doesn’t matter,
It’s fall, not spring.

A Poem On The Occasion Of 8:05 pm Eastern Standard Time, September 22, 2026 (0:05 GMT, September 23, 2026).

Do not put me in a box
on this autumnal equinox.
I think I’ll put on some shoes and socks
and go and sit among the rocks,
down by the river, where the locks
move the water…oh, look! A fox!
And his ears are pointed like Mr. Spock’s.

Now, where was I, my mind’s a pox.
I should be locked up in the stocks.
But this season’s quite a paradox
and this poem rather unorthodox
like the writings of Harvey Cox.
(Not forgetting Courtney, Brian, and Wally, who mocks
my shoes, they’re ugly crocs.)

For years I watched after flocks
(some brought me candy made by Brock’s!)
and most were nerds, though some were jocks,
a few wore hats called pillbox,
while some grew flowers called hollyhocks.
Though others preferred to grow some phlox,
I loved them all, which gave them shocks.

I tried and tried but cannot recall
a rhyme for this season known as…..
Autumn.

God is Sad

(Note: I wrote this back in 2008. It still captures how I feel on September 11.)

Barry attended the church I served in Cayce. He wandered in one day looking for food and company.

On a Sunday afternoon, a child from Noah’s Klubhouse, our children’s ministry, came running into my office.

“Pastor Mike! There’s a strange man sitting in Noah’s Klubhouse eating macaroni!”

I rushed down the hall to see what was going on. There, sitting in a kiddie chair, was a man who looked to be in his mid-twenties, eating a plate of macaroni and cheese. He looked up at me and smiled.

“Hi,” I said. “I’m Pastor Mike.”

“I’m Barry,” he said.

It was immediately apparent that Barry was developmentally disabled.

“Glad to meet you, Barry,” I said. “Why don’t you bring your supper with you and join me in my office?”

I grabbed a plate of mac and cheese, and the two of us walked back to my office.

It turned out that Barry had been walking down the road, saw people going into the church, and simply followed them inside. He lived about a mile away and attended a “school” nearby. I told him he was welcome anytime the church doors were open, but when the little people were meeting, he needed to come see me first.

And Barry started coming to church.

Every time the doors were open.

Worship? Barry walked in and made himself at home. Covered-dish supper? Barry was there. Youth or children meeting? He came to see me first, just as I had asked. Trustees meeting? Barry sat quietly in the back, never bothering anyone.

Eventually, he asked if he could join the choir. The choir director and members said, “Of course.”

Barry couldn’t read music or carry a tune. Mostly, he sang whatever the choir sang, only about half a beat later.

The choir was wonderful about it. No one complained. In fact, they began looking after Barry—helping him with clothes, food, transportation, and medical needs.

Eventually, I gave him another job. I asked him to carry our church banner into the sanctuary each Sunday with the acolyte. Barry would put on his robe, take hold of that banner, and carry it proudly down the aisle.

Then came September 11, 2007, the sixth anniversary of the terrorist attacks. It fell on a Tuesday, the same day of the week as September 11, 2001.

I had announced that our sanctuary would be open from 7 a.m. until 1 p.m. for anyone who wanted to stop by and pray. I arranged for quiet, meditative music to play throughout the morning. On the altar were four candles: two tall ones representing the Twin Towers, a shorter one for the Pentagon, and an even shorter one for the field in Pennsylvania. Prayer guides were available at the sanctuary door.

After getting everything ready, I spent some time there praying. Then I went back to my office to work.

A while later, I stepped outside for a breath of fresh air and noticed Barry’s “car” lying beside the sanctuary door.

Barry’s car was a long stick with a two-liter soda bottle attached to the end. He carried it with him everywhere and called it his car.

I knew Barry was inside.

I stepped into the sanctuary and saw him sitting there alone. No one else was there.

When he saw me, a big smile spread across his face.

“Passa Mike!”

Barry always had trouble pronouncing his t’s.

“Hey, Barry. What are you doing here?”

“I’m here for the 9-11.”

“Mind if I join you?” I asked.

He slid over, and I sat down beside him.

We sat there for a while, listening to the music and looking at the candles.

After a few minutes, Barry asked me a question.

“Passa Mike, is God sad?”

“Yes, Barry,” I said. “I think God is sad whenever we do things that hurt each other.”

“Oh,” he said.

We sat quietly for another minute.

“Barry, would you like to pray?”

“Sure.”

We bowed our heads. After a moment, I began praying aloud.

“Father God, on this day we remember—”

Barry began patting my leg.

“Passa Mike. Passa Mike. Passa Mike.”

I stopped.

“What is it, Barry?”

“Let’s be quiet. God is sad.”

So we were quiet.

Barry was my teacher that day.

Every year since, when September 11 comes around, I think about that morning in 2007 and about Barry sitting beside me in the sanctuary. Sometimes I listen to Bruce Springsteen’s “Into the Fire.”

But mostly, I sit in silence.

God is sad.

The Spaces Between the Pictures

I have gone back to school.

Our local university, Francis Marion University, is offering non-credit evening classes for the community, taught by its faculty, for the incredibly inexpensive price of $10 per course. I signed up for two: Photography: Make Not Take Better Photos, taught by Professor Julie Mixon, and Revolutionary War Battles in South Carolina, taught by Dr. Will Bolt.

I have a nice mirrorless digital camera that I know embarrassingly little about, and lately I have been traveling around South Carolina looking for lesser-known Revolutionary War battle sites. So both classes were right up my alley.

Professor Mixon’s first class introduced photography and what she believes makes a good photograph. A good photograph tells us something. It invites us into a part of the world we may not have noticed before. It often raises more questions than it answers. And, at its best, it gives us a new way of seeing the world around us.

She showed us photographs from her travels—landscapes, flowers, and some incredible close-ups of insects. She loves bugs. For our homework, she asked us to think about what makes a good photograph.

I’ve been doing just that.

Ansel Adams famously distinguished between taking a photograph and making one. Even when the shutter is open for only a thousandth of a second, the photographer has decisions to make. What am I photographing? Why? What belongs inside the frame? What should be left outside it? What should be sharp, and what should disappear into the blur?

A photograph may capture only a fraction of a second, but a good one can hold an entire story.

Professor Mixon showed us photographs by Dorothea Lange, whose work documented the human cost of the Great Depression. Nearly a century later, her photographs still allow us to look into the faces of people who endured the Dust Bowl and Depression and wonder about their lives. Her famous Migrant Mother, along with photographs such as Ditched, Stalled and Stranded, does more than record what someone looked like at a particular moment.

Migrant Mother

Ditched, Stalled, and Stranded

The pictures make you wonder what happened five minutes before the shutter clicked—and what happened five minutes afterward.

They make you compose a story in your mind.

Years ago, in a previous chapter of my life, I visited a young friend in the pediatric cancer ward of a hospital in Columbia. Most of the patients on that floor were under twelve, and many stayed for long periods.

As I stepped into the elevator, a young woman stepped in with me. She looked to be in her early thirties. She had long, straight hair and wore loose-fitting pants and an oversized, long-sleeved T-shirt. She carried a large bag. Stuffed animals peeked out of the top, along with a few clothes and snacks.

She never looked at me.

She looked at the elevator buttons.

When she saw the floor I had already selected, she didn’t press another button. She simply turned and stared at the wall.

I tried not to stare at her.

I knew nothing about this woman. I didn’t know who she was going to see or what news she had received. But something about her told me she had ridden that elevator a hundred times. She looked tired—deeply tired—but determined. There was a strength in the way she stood there that seemed greater than the circumstances surrounding her.

I wish I could have made a photograph of her.

Not because I wanted a picture of a tired woman carrying a bag of stuffed animals, but because I wish I could have captured that strength. I wish I could have taken a photograph that made someone who had never met her stop and wonder about her story.

Over the years, I have visited many people in their homes, and I have developed a habit of noticing the photographs they display.

Photographs tell so much about us.

And they keep so many secrets.

Most are the expected pictures—weddings, birthdays, anniversaries, vacations, graduations. In that way, the photographs on our walls are a little like the pictures we post on social media. They tend to show the good moments. Everybody is smiling. Everybody is dressed nicely. Everybody appears happy.

But occasionally a collection of photographs tells a deeper story.

Years ago, I visited a family who lived in a small mobile home. On one wall were eight photographs. As best I could tell, they were the only family photographs displayed in the house.

Each one had been made for a church pictorial directory.

You can usually recognize those photographs from across the room. Everybody is wearing their Sunday clothes. The smiles are slightly forced. And somewhere behind them is that inevitable blue background.

Eight of these pictures hung in a row.

The first showed a young couple. They were smiling and looked recently married.

In the second, they were holding a baby. Their smiles were even bigger.

The third showed the couple with a small child and another baby.

Then came the fourth photograph.

The children were teenagers now.

Nobody was smiling.

The mother looked tired. The father looked angry.

In the fifth photograph, the father was gone. Only the mother and her two older teenagers remained. She looked worried.

The sixth showed the mother alone.

She had a slight smile.

The seventh showed her with her two now-grown children.

All three were smiling.

And then there was the eighth.

The mother was gray-haired now. Beside her stood her two adult children, their spouses, and a small baby.

Everyone was beaming.

Eight photographs.

No captions. No explanations.

I never knew the whole story behind that wall, and perhaps that is what made those photographs so powerful. Somewhere between those blue backgrounds there had been love and disappointment, babies and teenagers, anger and absence, loneliness and reconciliation. Some chapters of a family’s life no camera recorded.

But you could still see traces of them.

The pictures told a story.

And so did the spaces between the pictures.

Several years ago, I read about Dale Irby, a physical education teacher in Dallas who accidentally wore the same outfit for his school yearbook photograph two years in a row. His wife dared him to do it again. Eventually it became a tradition, and for decades he appeared in his yearbook photograph wearing essentially the same polyester shirt and sweater vest.

What began as an ordinary school photograph became something else entirely.

It became a record of time passing.

The clothes stayed the same. The man did not.

Dale Irby, Prestwood Elementary School, Dallas, TX

Maybe that is part of what photographs do for us. They remind us that the world is always changing, even when we aren’t paying attention.

Today we probably take more photographs than any generation in human history. Our phones contain thousands of them. We photograph our meals, our pets, our grandchildren, sunsets, vacations, birthday cakes, and ourselves standing in front of places we may never visit again.

But strangely, the more photographs we take, the fewer we seem to keep.

We don’t print many of them anymore. We upload them online, look at them for a day or two, and then they disappear into the enormous digital attic of our phones and computers.

Perhaps that is why Professor Mixon’s distinction between taking and making photographs has stayed with me.

I don’t really need to learn how to take more pictures.

I already know how to do that.

I want to learn how to see.

I want to notice the woman in the elevator. The changing faces on the wall. The things most people walk past without seeing. I want to learn to make photographs worth printing and putting somewhere that people might stop and look at them years from now.

Maybe they will wonder what happened just before the shutter clicked.

Maybe they will wonder what happened afterward.

Maybe they will see something in the picture that I didn’t even know was there.

Because it is a big old world, filled with people and places we pass every day without really seeing.

Sometimes all it takes is a camera—and someone willing to pay attention.

Every picture tells a story.

Hampton, my cat, whom I miss